Dear pyjamas, sad mental loops and depressing songs, rip. I am over you. Ιn the mornings I will get up and I will wear my sharpest clothes, I am putting my best face on because for a while now I have been doing it for myself. On the hardest of days I am still showing up for me. And fick dich to the things I used to tell myself. The you are small, you are unworthy, you are bad have been replaced by you are strong, you are brave, you are kind, you are compassionate, you are WORTHY. As beautifully as Glennon Doyle puts it in her latest book Untamed "you are a fucking cheetah".
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Even on the saddest days I can still come up with three things I am grateful for. At times it can be the beloved friend that supported me, the cat that made me laugh by chasing a tiny moth up and down the apartment, the sun that is shining bright shedding its light on my insides. Other times it can be my lungs that are breathing lively, my legs that carry me with joy, a heart that is feeling deeply.
Feel, shed, expand, repeat.
I might have to turn this into a T-shirt.
Rise girl, rise.
Thoughts come streaming when I lie in bed at night. All the things that went wrong in life, all the why's that will never be resolved. I tell myself you are better than this. I am better than this. And I switch. I start imagining all the beautiful things life still holds for me. I envision my future, my best case scenario for a change. The content and beautiful days that are awaiting me. I get to the scared little child inside me, that little almost forgotten cheetah cub, I hold her telling her everything is going to be alright. I stroke her and bathe her with my heart like mother cheetahs bathe their babies with their tongues. It's a safe place to be, it's a fun safe warm playground. I've got you now babe, we've got this.
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This morning my inner critic asked me "Where do you think you are going, Mel?" and I replied "Some place better, old friend. Take care. I am loved by more important people now. I am loved by myself".
Sometimes life will be a hard teacher, especially to us, the ones who are soft inside. However, we are also strong and very much equipped to pull through everything that comes our way. We just have to remember to close our eyes from time to time, call for our inner cheetahs and let our wild souls rise.
